impatience

It is interesting, intriguing, surprising, and sometimes awe-striking how quickly and unexpectedly emotions can pop-up. That's the kind of afternoon I had. It happened without expectation. An event that prompted awkwardness and then near fury. Ugh, not a pretty site. It took a long time to recover from that moment...and then it was like it opened the flood gate. Other emotions unwarranted and unwelcome began to creep in. Eventually, I ended in that place where I often want to crawl. It is in my turtle shell but would be most desirable in the arms of someone who loves me. Now if the thoughts, fears, emotions, irritations, and tiredness would just leave already.

In my bible study tonight I thought I might be nudged to tears over waiting...not a topic I want to delve into these days since I have become ever more concerned that the "wait" has become a "never". Then Beth Moore said it is draining, depleting when we wait on a thing, event, or person. However, when we wait on the Lord our strength is renewed. Possibly, I have given up on waiting on the thing, event, or person but also released hope in the Lord in some areas.

This verse was laid on my heart about six weeks ago for a dear friend and tonight it came back around to undoubtedly speak to me in a different light.

but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.~Isaiah 40: 31

But this one was new to me...

And the Lord answered me: "Write the vision; make it plain on tablets, so he may run who reads it. For still the vision awaits it's appointed time; it hastens to the end-it will not lie. If it seems slow wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay. ~Habakkuk 2:2-3

Lord, renew my strength to wait on you that I may be replenished in you. Help me to wait on you and not the thing, event, or person in my thoughts until it's appointed time. In your name, Amen.